Not Today!

I thought about talking to you today.
Several times.

But today is not the day.
The memories are too fresh.

Every thought of you
brings fire and hurt.
Yesterday…
I felt small, unseen, disrespected.

And today, you asked why I didn’t sleep.

Why do you think?

I went to bed angry.
That’s why I couldn’t rest.

I spent the night—
and the day—
feeling the weight,
wondering what to say.

Fire and Clay

You need fire, you said.

I am not fire.

I am earth and water.
And when earth meets water,
something quiet is born.

Clay.

Clay builds.
Clay protects.
Clay holds.
Clay stays.

Fire sparks a beginning,
but it fades.
Clay remains.
It does not vanish.

And still,
it isn’t enough for you.

Acceptance

Good.

It is good to know now.

I am not fire.
I am who I am.

And who I am
does not need apology.
Does not beg for approval.

All I ever wanted from you:
love.
Appreciation.

I have that for you.
But you do not.

Good.
Thank you for showing me.

From Anger to Gratitude

Yesterday, I was fire.
All day, burning.

And now…
I am clay.
Grounded.
Still.
Grateful.

Grateful for what we lived.
Grateful for the lesson.

You showed me I deserve someone
who sees me.
Who appreciates me.

I am worthy
of true love.