What a journey!

Could it all be just an illusion?
I want to believe it isn’t!
I am not imagining things…
And yet, at times, I fail in that wanting!

I doubt what I see.
I doubt what I feel.
I doubt what I hear.
Everything seems to be nothing but an illusion!

I walk hidden paths in the middle of nowhere…
A nowhere filled with the whole that carries me into your arms.
And could it all be just an illusion?

I don’t know how much longer I can live with this doubt…
It is draining my strength…

You search for me between the nothing you offer me
and the longing smile of my whole.

I want to keep this moment
and live it every day of my life!

I love this back and forth of wanting and not wanting,
having and not having,
being and not being!

I love it,
because this back and forth
is you!